I don’t know what it is but I’ve lost it…the evaporation of the blogging mojo

Over recent months visits to my blog have doubled, but the number of posts I have written has halved. What could the explanation be?

It is easy actually, to know why this has happened. I am not sure how to see my way through the position I find myself in.

A few weeks ago a very popular TH antiques expert died suddenly and I quickly put up a post admitting to a love of daytime auction programmes and expressing my sadness at the loss of someone who was always able to cheer me up for a few minutes with a cheeky smile and a love of beautiful things.

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Sex lurks in the shadows of the Pre-Raphaelites – phallic symbols in Isabella by Millais

FAIR Isabel, poor simple Isabel! 
Lorenzo, a young palmer in Love’s eye! 
They could not in the self-same mansion dwell 
Without some stir of heart, some malady; 
They could not sit at meals but feel how well 
It soothed each to be the other by; 
They could not, sure, beneath the same roof sleep 
But to each other dream, and nightly weep. 

So reads the first stanza of ‘Isabella, or The Pot of Basil’ written by John Keats in 1818. It is a poem I liked very much as a teenager, before I learned a little more about how rapidly Keats developed as a poet and how much more satisfying overall were poems like ‘The Eve of St Agnes’ and the great odes of 1819. Simply expressed it is a story of love, jealousy, murder and corruption; a young woman, Isabella, falls in love with an employee in the family firm and the young man, Lorenzo, returns her love. Their passion is thwarted by her jealous brothers who want her to marry some noble man for clearly commercial reasons. They murder Lorenzo, whose ghost appears to Isabella in a dream and directs her to where his body is buried. She takes his decomposing head and re-buries it in a pot of basil, which she tends lovingly as she pines away.

The Pre-Raphaelite Brotherhood, who are the subjects of new show at Tate Britain, were always attracted to the subject matter in Keats’ poetry and his lush, sensual descriptions of medieval settings and stories summoned from Dante and Boccaccio. One of the paintings inspired by Isabella has been the subject of some discussion in the press this week. A curator of the exhibition, Dr Carol Jacobi,  claims to have uncovered a ‘dirty secret’ that has so far escaped expert eyes and unsurprisingly Tate Britain have realised that sex sells.

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10, 9, 8… Now the ‘clocks’ really are counting down for Dandelions and Bad Hair Days.

Well it is definitely happening now. No longer an idea, or a manuscript or a virtual, social media entity. Dandelions and Bad Hair Days is a physical book – with a cover and everything! It has an ISBN number, a cover price and a launch party booked and so, with much wringing of hands and nibbling of pearly pink painted fingernails it is truly all go here – the marketing really has to move up a gear so that as many people as possible find out about the book before publication. With all profits going to the mental health charity SANE and other mental health charities nominated by contributors it is vital that I get the message out there.

So…. the 10th October is the big day. The launch party is booked for 7pm at Brendon Books in Taunton, a fabulous independently run bookshop – the owners of which also organise the Taunton Literary Festival.

Today I found out from Tim at Dotterel Press that the cover price will be £5.99 and the book will be available via Amazon for worldwide distribution. There will be an initial print run and then we will have to see how it goes…. Frankly, I am terrified. Those people who contributed to the book and helped me with the publication of it deserve to be part of a huge success story. We don’t just want to raise money – important though that is – we want to contribute to the great work others are doing to raise awareness of mental health issues and challenge the stigma still evident in employment, health and, frankly, life.

The pieces in the book vary widely – from a straightforward account of depression to the heartbreak of a parent at the loss of a child. Poetry and prose combine to offer stories of suffering and pain, but also hope, laughter and life. The authors are mothers, fathers, sons, daughters and friends. They are everyone; all of us.

So please do visit the Dandelions and Bad Hair Days website, ‘like’ the Facebook page and follow the #DABHD hashtag on Twitter to help support those who are living with depression and anxiety and finding ways to manage mental health issues. With a Foreword by Marjorie Wallace, Chief Executive of SANE and their endorsement you can be confident that in buying a copy from the 10th October you will be making a real difference.

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Sarah’s story – family history and poetry from the darkest places…

Inside Banstead Hospital, Carson. From the Henry Boxer Gallery

In a previous post, I wrote of Sarah Hardiman, the first (and only legal) wife of my Great Grandfather George Hardiman. George Hardiman was a journeyman silversmith, born in 1839 in an impoverished part of Clerkenwell, North London. Sarah (nee Withall) was born ten years later. Sarah was a ‘lunatic’. Apparently.

Family history has taken me to some interesting places, both physically (to archives, museums, streets) and mentally, as I work my way through a tangle of lives that are only ordinary at the most cursory glance. What shocking things we learn when we dig deeper.

A few weeks ago I met with Rosemary Morgan of London Roots Research for a genealogy and friendly catch up. We met at the London Metropolitan Archives where I wanted to look into the records of Banstead Mental Hospital, where, as I wrote in that previous post, I had discovered Sarah had died in the early 1930′s.

Banstead Asylum, as it was orignally called, only closed in 1986 but had a history that went back more than a 100 years. In 1873 the Middlesex County Council bought Hundred Acres Farm for the sum of £10,000 to build its third mental asylum.

The Banstead Asylum opened in 1877. It housed 1,700 patients, two thirds of whom were female. Each block, which housed 160 patients, was designated by a letter. Block A was the female infirmary, Block H the male. Blocks B to F and Block L housed women and Blocks J, K and M men. Continue reading

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To be ‘a friend of Keats’ – a very Romantic circle

Keats by Benjamin Robert Haydon, with inscription in praise of his friend the poet.

John Keats is now known as one of the greatest poets in the English language. Often included in the great ‘triad’ of younger Romantics with Shelley and Byron, his life and work has arguably retained a larger and more interested audience than either of those legendary figures, due in part to the wonderful body of writing in the letters he wrote, now often published alongside his poetry.

The letters, which include some of the most extraordinary analysis of the relationship of poet and poetry to the wider world, were written to family – his brothers George and Tom in particular – and friends who, recognising the genius they contained, copied and treasured them. His love letters to Fanny Brawne have received recent attention following the release of the film ‘Bright Star’ in 2009; the knowledge that she treasured them following his death, keeping them secret until after her own death more than 40 years later, adds to the intensity of their story.

In 1818 Keats wrote ‘I could not live without the love of my friends’, and for him they were the support he needed as contact with his family was withdrawn. His brother George married and emigrated to America in the summer of 1818; he nursed his other brother, Tom, through TB until Tom died in December of the same year and Fanny, his only sister and youngest sibling was kept a semi-prisoner by her guardian Richard Abbey in Walthamstow.

Keats’ reputation has lately been rescued by eminent biographers from that image of the young, romantic but frail and doomed poet that prevailed for more than one hundred years after his death in 1821. In fact, he was a robust young man, his physique often compared to that of a boxer – short and stocky with broad shoulders. His hair was reddish-brown, his eyes large and his face strong and open with an attractive, large bony nose. He had a wonderful sense of humour, was full of life and felt that poetry – that sensuous delight –  should be ‘felt on the pulses’.  He loved a good claret and was never happier than with his close circle of male friends. His letters show him to be both a serious-minded man of letters and a bawdy, jokey man; he could be sensitive, generous and a truly gentle man whilst also having the potential for fury and jealousy. It was a magical combination that could hold people spellbound. Charismatic but not arrogant or conceited, his publisher John Taylor said of him: ‘If you knew him you would also feel that strange personal interest in all that concerns him’. A man that could only ever be himself –  sincere, deeply sympathetic, open and incapable of the guile necessary to make friends for a purpose  - cast a spell that holds us to him into the 21st century.

Now – I appreciate that many of those that read my blog regularly, especially those posts that relate to matters poetic, will know that my love for Keats has been something of a lifelong passion. From teenage crush to adult preoccupation I have willingly spent hours in his company and his poems and letters have been with me through some tough times. But his attraction to all those who knew him is well documented; many of those that sought his company had their own fame as writers, artists, critics and journalists and we can be grateful to them for the care they took to note Keats’ story (whilst acknowledging that they perpetuated the myth of doomed youth).

So, I thought I would start a series of posts that focus on those friends that, like Joseph Severn, who nursed Keats through his final illness in Rome, were proud to say they were the ‘friend of Keats’.  These friends had such faith in the value of his work that they championed him after his death until the critics and public had to acknowledge what they all knew to be the truth – that they had been in the company of a genius.

J H Reynolds

So, I hope you will look forward to finding out more about poet, satirist and critic John Hamilton Reynolds and the Rev. Benjamin Bailey, men who received letters full of Keats’ philosophy of life and poetry;  the artists Benjamin Robert Haydon and Joseph Severn; Charles Armitage Brown, with whom Keats lived and travelled; essayist  journalist and campaigner (James Henry) Leigh Hunt; editor John Taylor and critic and writer Charles Wentworth Dilke. I will also write of Fanny Brawne, who was more generous about many of his friends than they were about her. Keats wrote to her the words that summed up his own view on the value of love and friendship:

“I love you the more in that I believe you had liked me for my own sake and for nothing else.”

I will also try to convey something of the influence each friend had on Keats and how their friendships, with Keats and with each other, affected his life and posthumous reputation.

John Keats was a special man, but as Fanny Brawne said in a letter to his sister, Fanny:

‘I am certain he has some spell that attaches them to him or else he has met with a set of friends that I did not believe could be found in the world’

Perhaps the truth is that the man of genius found the friends that genius deserved.

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Temps Perdu – on deja vu and Dorothy Parker

I have been experiencing some odd feelings of deja vu in the last few weeks. Trying to explain them to a friend, I struggled and frankly  sounded slightly odd.

Perhaps this was because in every day terms we have come to use the phrase ‘deja vu’ in a slightly flimsy, inaccurate way. Reading more about it for this post, it seems it is a phenomenon that is still open to a myriad interpretations. It is not simply a trick of the mind, or false memory that gives us a shiver at the time and which can easily be laughed off. At the most scientific level, it can be an aspect of epileptic episodes; at the least evidence based end of the spectrum it is evidence of reincarnation. I don’t believe either of these describe my sensations, which are rather more prosaic.

I can’t explain easily what I have been experiencing, but as an example I might be driving into my home town and have the sense that I am driving into somewhere completely different, albeit subtly so. (It might be nice to drive into Wellington and imagine it is Rome, but sadly that level of fantasy is beyond me.) Does that make sense? It is almost as if it is a memory that is struggling to reconnect with my current life but each time I try and grasp at it to find out what it is trying to show me it slips away.

Recently I have also found myself sensitised to old photos; to fading roses; to songs and classical music; all of which currently have a greater power to bring on a fit of melancholy. I have also been thinking about what happens ‘from now on in’ – after all there are only so many new careers you can try, and at my age I ought to settle on something and stick to it…. Continue reading

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In praise of daytime antiques programmes – a tribute to David Barby

For some reason I have felt compelled to write a quick blog post. Usually I spend quite a lot of time researching and writing a post that involves a literary or historical connection. Or I indulge in reminiscence or even have a rant.

But today I just wanted to say something that might be a little unfashionable in historical circles in tribute to one of the masters of the ‘art’ of daytime television.

It was announced today that David Barby has died, aged just 63,  following a stroke. I was surprised at how genuinely upset I felt at the news – to be honest there are so many tragedies in the world that to mourn the death of a celebrity auctioneer and antiques dealer might seem indulgent.

However, he has been involved in programmes such as Bargain Hunt, Flog It! and Antiques Road Trip for years and at this point it seems only right to make an admission – I really enjoy sitting down with a cuppa in front of the telly and having fun with these shows.

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